Losing You

 

My heart will shatter into a million zillion pieces

It will crash to the earth 

Scatter tiny little fragments on the ground

It will feel like falling

A never-ending descent into 

An infinite ebony abyss

 

I will wear black and cover my face

To hide tear-stained cheeks 

And bloodshot eyes 

 

Something akin to dying 

Without the relief of an ending 

Losing you will be my undoing 

Pieces of me will be lost

My soul irreparably broken

Consciousness locked in one moment of time

 

I will wear black and cover my face 

To hide tear-stained cheeks 

And bloodshot eyes

 

Every fibre of my being will scream 

Rebel against the truth 

Struggle to cope with reality 

I will long for your touch

Skin to skin once more 

Hand on my heart

 

I will wear black and cover my face 

To hide tear-stained cheeks 

And bloodshot eyes

 

I will lie in bed alone 

Crisp cotton sheets an ocean of 

Empty space where you once were 

Your pillow will smell of Irish Spring and sandalwood 

A small indent where you laid your head

 

I will wear black and cover my face 

To hide tear-stained cheeks 

And bloodshot eyes


Mornings will be quiet, lonely

Each cup of coffee will remind me of your a.m. rituals 

Evenings will be quieter still 

The kitchen void of the clatter of dishes

But night time will be worse

Night time will be… too damn quiet

 

I will wear black and cover my face 

To hide tear-stained cheeks 

And bloodshot eyes

 

 

By: T.J. Ruberto 2021

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